Do you know what’s a great benefit of spending time in isolated prayer and meditation on God? God can deal with our hearts in those times. God can bring us face to face with some realities and truths that we need to face. God can put a mirror in front of us and help us understand what our thoughts look like, what our hearts look like and what our strengths and weaknesses look like. I was in a semi deep meditation on the Lord the other day and He opened my eyes to something I had not been willing to face. I saw the Lord on a throne. I couldn’t see His face and I couldn’t see Him clearly but I saw what represented Him in my mind. He was sitting on the throne of my heart. He was glorious but the problem was that He wasn’t sitting there by Himself. He was great and mighty and He was occupying most of the seat but there were other occupants next to Him. I noticed one in particular. He was much smaller than God but he kept changing in size. He was mostly small but at times he doubled or even tripled in size. As his size was changing, so did the Lord’s. It was as if the Lord shrunk a little when the other one on the throne grew bigger.
The other occupant was fear. Fear was ugly and nasty but fear felt very familiar. Fear wasn’t scary. It was almost a comforting figure. It was someone that had been sitting on that throne for a long time. It was someone who had been allowed to sit on that throne for as long as I could remember. The throne of my heart was shared. It was mostly occupied by God but I had given fear the permission to take a seat and to stay there for as long as it wanted. Fear is not welcome. Fear should not be invited anywhere in our hearts. Fear feels natural to us but it should not be next to our supernatural God. Fear has to go. Fear has to step down and never get back on that throne. I am a man of God and Jesus is the King of my life. However, there are times when fear is what I see and what I use to navigate through life. God has given me the tools to deal with fear and I use them. At times it is very easy and fear cannot be found. At times fear is a foreigner to me that doesn’t have the right to cross the border of my heart. During my meditative time, the Lord was reminding me that fear was much smaller than Him and it had to be dealt with.
Years ago when I became more serious about the Lord and I developed a strong relationship with Him, fear became so small that I believed I had no fear. It was a very powerful and very mind-blowing experience. I had never had that happen to me before. It lasted for weeks. Weeks with no apparent fear. Weeks where faith was dominant and fear was absent. I was deeply rooted in the Lord and no one and nothing could match my God. Then a few events took place that shook my faith. What I felt took me by surprise because I truly believed I had no fear in me. God has not given me a spirit of fear but of power, of love and of self-discipline. The same is true for you, friend. We get into trouble when we focus more on what we see and we take our eyes off of Jesus. When our problems are all we think about and all we pay attention to, fear gets up on the throne of our hearts and it sits there. It’s time we dethroned fear and gave Jesus the whole space on that throne.
I prayed and asked God what I should do to handle the fear that pops up from time to time. He took me down memory lane and reminded me of how I used to magnify Jesus in a big way. Not that long ago I was still doing that but when trials hit my life, I started staring at them too much. I repented for allowing my problems to take more space than my God. I declared that Jesus was greater and stronger. I lifted Him up. I praised Him. I thanked Him. Friend, the joy that came upon me was very strong and I got teary. No one should occupy the throne of my heart except for Jesus. He is my deliverer, my Savior, my hope and my peace. I am highly blessed and highly favored and so are you. Give Jesus back His full seat. Keep on lifting Him up. Glorify Him. Speak His name over your problems. Take the time to spend time with Him. Choose Him over Netflix if it comes down to it. Let Him be bigger than the fear. You do not have a spirit of fear so don’t act like you do. You have faith. You have hope. You have Jesus. You have all you need. The King is on the throne and that settles all matters of life. Stay strong! May God bless you and protect you and remember that He will always love you!
Suggested reading: Romans 8:15; 2 Timothy 1:7; 1 John 4:18